I know I shouldn’t be doing anything but to relax, lest one
person who literally “paid” me to relax and take the week off read about this.
But this isn’t work, but a passion, so here I am blogging. Taking the
opportunity to post much.
Do you believe in angels?
I do. And they come in all forms. Some speak to us because
we need to hear certain things to affirm the decisions we made in life, or to
warn us about future misfortunes. Depending on how receptive our senses are
about their presence in our lives, we sometimes see them clearly, but most of
the time they appear in the form of another human being.
They could be someone you meet recently,or someone who’s
been with you for so long. But mostly, they stay present in your life as long
as they are still fulfilling their purpose. I’ve had many people come into my
life and made drastic positive changes in me, and then all of a sudden, they
disappear. And I wonder where they went. Then I realized, their mission or role
in my life is done.
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In my experience and humble opinion, an angel (in the human form) is someone who helps you in the best way he/she could and ask nothing in return. Or more so , disappear from your life.
Almost ten years ago, during my transition period from
living abroad and coming back to our country and staying for good, I met one
person who helped me a lot overcome my adversity and the difficulties of trying
to start all over again. Online.
On my 26th birthday, without anything to do and
to fight boredom, I joined an online correspondence on Hotmail. I got plenty of
responses but I maintained communication with only three persons. A British guy,
a Filipino American US Navy and a German guy.
Among the three, I managed constant communication with the
Fil-Am guy named “Noel Serrano” as he introduced himself to me. There wasn’t
much of an exchange of personal information, but I felt like we had rapport
maybe because we have the same culture and beliefs. He may have been raised in
San Diego,California, but he was still a Filipino at heart.
And so , he communicated with me online for years without me
knowing his real identity which eventually led to personal conversations
through phone. He send one photo of himself, which was very dark. I could not
really help but think he was just playing me for a fool. But I could always feel
the sincerity of his heart to help me in any way he can.
Can you really know someone so well, but not know his real
identity? As crazy as it may sound, I did. I asked him once why he does
everything to help me, including financial matters. And the only answer he gave
me was “because you saved my life.”
I don’t really know what he meant by that, it is a very
vague answer so I put all my efforts to squeeze an elaboration from him.
Finally he said that I was an angel because at the very moment that he was
about to commit suicide, I somewhat made him realize something. Actually, I remember
sending him Echoes of Our Hearts written by Joe D’Mango which he said reading
it made him realize that a lost love doesn’t mean a life lost. At that time he
just broke up with his girlfriend. And that, he said, saved his life.
And so, for the next 5 years we continued our friendship and then
he became my angel. Every time I would be in deep trouble, even when I was already in a new relationship, I don’t need to say anything, he would just pop
in a message and ask me how I was. And I would be honest about my situation. He
would always extend help in any way he can.
It was like having mental telepathy. I just think of him and then he’d be there
online.During that time, he became “James Recto”, a name I know was just
another alias he used.
We had planned to meet but all our plans were ruined by the
9-11 incident. Because of his work, he was called back to base as the entire US
Military forces were on red alert. He offered me an all-expense paid trip to
Guam to visit him while he was based there, but I declined. I cannot really understand why I declined, maybe I just "chickened" out or maybe it just wasn’t meant to be. Until now, I'm still having thoughts that the 911 incident became just one of his excuses not to meet me.
He is now married but the last time we corresponded, he was
asking me if there was a procedure done in the Philippines for artificial conception as his Spanish wife can’t get pregnant by natural means. And I remember
recommending St. Luke’s Hospital to them.
That was the last time I heard from him. I can’t even check
him out on Facebook because I don’t know his real name.
Indeed, many people come into our lives, at the very moment
that we need them. More often, we do not realize this until their role in our
life is done. And I never got the chance to thank him for everything he's done for me.
And that is why, I will never let the chance pass me by again to thank
anyone who’s been ever so helpful to me because I do not know when their roles
and their presence in my life will end. Being grateful for something is just
the tip of the iceberg. Being grateful for someone’s presence in your life and acknowledging
that role is what makes your relationship with that person worthwhile.
Without knowing it, I was an angel to someone, who eventually chose to be an angel to me. Know and acknowledge your life's angels. I know some of them are just standing very close to you.
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